My Creation

Sometimes I do think whether I am evolving or not I can suffice from the fact that there is growth of some sort When deep inside me there is anguish and harsh sound I divert my mind; move outside and try to spread positive vibes all around I am always surrounded be friends everywhere For majority of them I try to care If anyone is in problem I am there But very few of them reciprocate with same flare I can not understand why I am always misunderstood May be I am outspoken or may be I don't negate the company I should Or may be I talk achievements which, for this jealous world, are too good Or may be there is some genuine lacunae which should be understood.... I am working and working really hard But towards filling the void inside me and not towards making my career smart Where is the aggressive attitude which I should guard It lacks because I don't think in head and ruled by my HEART ! These are harder times for which God is taking my test; Still I am growing and growin...

I may not have realized the importance of you in my Life But surely there was something which never kept you out of my sight And now is the day when you are part of my life There was something missing from which you have given me respite We started talking and sharing feelings everyday Our relationship grew as if nothing could come our way Then don't know what happened, you stopped talking May be something happened which was not upto your liking It cant be my fault that i know It's just peer pressure which is keeping you low When would you realize who are your real friends Be sure, it happens before it's too late to make amends You are the one for whom i care You trying to break relationship don't even dare [:x] Just try to be normal and reciprocate with same flare I am unique and my companionship is rare !!

Many People say never dwell in the past But if past is glorious who can forget that Remember the first time we met When i looked smarter to you And sweetness is what I saw in you Nothing was predictable and the crazy things i started doing; were to me also new Like roaming in isolated lanes for hours; expecting you ! There were days when i got only a glance of you But that reassured me about the emotions, we both were going through Then came then season of rains when we started talking for hours But the hours looked so less that i could not feel the rains but only the showers I was amazed at myself being thrown into this mesmerizing pool ! Is this the same place i once called the PARADISE OF FOOLS .... Never fallen into something like this before I wanted to confirm myself and be absolutely sure So I slowed down myself and delayed the acceptance Here started the void in relations which with days got dense And finally when I did gave a thought of that magical day ...

Life could take so may twists I never expected sometimes I feel as if certainty is abducted thou feels as if the situation is accepted the very moment life declares me as rejected Getting everything in life and feeling good if this is sanity; then, my soul is wood Why I behave as if I should Life is suspense and I'm no Robin hood I am burning in this fire Even after getting all I desire Oh god show me the circuit and not only the wire Help me before i end up myself as satire

Ret ne apne jazeero se dekha aur pucha ek sawaal kya hua hai tujhe deewane kyu hai aisa haal tu to kabhi aisa na tha phir hai tu kis kashmkash me tu to mehfuz tha samundar ke goton me to fir aaj kyu hai is ret ke bass me kanto ka murjhaya hua phool jo chubh raha hai tere jhehen me wo tassavvur me basi hui parchai hai aage badh ab na reh uss vehem me tujhe jitna hai apne aap ko aur mitana hai in kadhinayio ke shrap ko to mat aa mere aagosh me ja amar ho jaa apne hi fan me !

Stones could be softer too When one gets his long overdue The ONE for which he was waiting for long The ONE for his heart sang a song The ONE which could never be wrong Yes the ONE which is spread on throng Love it may be or may be desire It can put everything on fire Sometimes it may end in A mere satire Yes the ONE which often ends haywire This is the ONE what me should realize This is the ONE which always feels nice This is the ONE which brings suffice Yes the ONE which helped me to rise

Wandering through the wood of dreams I can see myself screaming what's in the heart; cant guess but I can sense the feeling something which is deeper in meaning I'm not able to see... Because ; Restless is the word for me !! Love it might seem like; bcoz I'm So romantic then why does it hurt; like a scratch turning septic everything is hooked up to me; why it's not letting me free... Because ; Restless is the word for me !! So many expectations are to be met curve could be smoother if I bet But I 'm not willing to prove Vision is missing which can let me  groove My bird is in cage so i can not flee Because; Restless is the word for me !! But shatters will be broken if i decide I need to glow and don't want to hide may be then i'll get peace of mind a new me ; but an expected find That day each one would agree Because; Restless wont be word for me !!

Why this question is put over me why no one can let me be free why I cannot be only me ! I cannot and I won't agree coz this is me and this is my tree.... I'm so restless and i'm so down yet i'm smiling and no one can see me frown I'm running and running in isolated lane I just forgot how to feel the pain may be life become numb or may be i've grown insane Yet still i've light to find my way It doesn't matter what other people say It's my life and i am the one who'll pay It will turn greener from now what it seems gray Yes I'm the one who'll always have the last say This is my game and I'll decide how to play....

Turning through the realms of LIFE Do I think where I am... no worries no qualms in life but still the dreams r out of sight This restlessness is killing me; Something needs to erupt which is within me ! Please leave; my heart told me mind is still balancing to let free I always tried to explore myself never tried to touch my soul Reacted always from heart but never tried to dig the hole Who am I ; Do I Know ? Always willing,ready to show Vanished myself in the darkness of glow I was doing good so why this crime Sucked inside me is this venomous hymn Don know what is left inside this dirty sack But..whatever is left I'll hit back I can go as long as I can see I can find a new world and a new me Only thing which needs to come back is grit and determination After that I will know myself, and definitely come out of hibernation ! that would be my day and that DAY ; I'll be worth my creation ...

Hey, This Blog is an effort to channelise my creation towards innovative and ignited minds. Further everybody is free to add more light to it !! Roh.... ka mazik sab pe chalta hai :)